The longer I hang around this job, the more I realize how out of place I am. The guys are great (in general), and I totally respect each of them for different reasons. I feel as though I am somewhat of a laughing stock for some reason. This is not a good feeling. It is a damaging feeling, and I know that I cannot continually submit myself to that kind of emotional lambast. Further, I think I intimidate those around me because I won't conform to their peer pressure. I'm not immune to peer pressure, I simply don't regard them as my peers. They aren't my peers, not because they aren't smart enough to be, but because our interest are light-years apart. I go home and review academic papers for publication, they go home and watch sports (drink in hand).

Plans for the night: Work on my last paper.

Music for the night: Groove Salad streaming radio.

 

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Austin Gilbert/Male/26-30. Lives in United States/Oklahoma/Tulsa/Midtown, speaks English. Spends 40% of daytime online. Uses a Fast (128k-512k) connection. And likes computer science/photography.
This is my blogchalk: United States, Oklahoma, Tulsa, Midtown, English, Austin Gilbert, Male, 26-30, computer science, photography.

2003/01/21