I came home from work today completely frustrated with the world. Granted, I'm mediocre at my job, it is not a reason to disrespect me as a person. Everyone deserves a basic level of human respect. I am not afforded this respect by my employers, and certainly not by many of my coworkers. I told myself
"Don't feel sorry for yourself, change your circumstances". After meditating for two hours, and taking a shower, I feel I have recovered from the de-humanizing humiliation that I was put through at the office today. People think it is fun to tease me, because I "take it well". I am like the Chinese in this respect - I smile when insulted. I wonder sometimes what they think they are accomplishing by ridiculing me in such a way.
